am i missing too much???...

for those who faithfully visit my blog... and for myself too...

i'm doin fine... still healthy and all... just been really busy for the past few MONTHS, hence the "terabai" punya blog...

just a thought though... does anyone around my age/was my age ever felt that life is moves really fast??..too fast in fact...

i feel that since i entered college, time is just "fast-forwarding" before my eyes(reminds me of my old faulty vcr player..;-) ) ..one year of college is way too fast... can't imagine leaving for uni next year... i feel like i'm missing the essential things in life right now, like spending quality time with ur family and friends.. instead all that i've time to do now is studying and attending to my assignments... cuz my future depends heavily on that... is this a point of no return for me??.. like once i miss this point of life where i'm at right now, will i ever get to re-live some of the best moments and memories??? i guess not....

i'm compelled to grow up at a faster-than-usual pace... some may see it as a good thing as u get more freedom and all, but i see it as a platform of more perpetuating responsibilities... and besides that, things around me are just evolving and becoming more and more complicated these days...

i miss being able to talk and laugh with my close friends and not have to think about whether or not i'm intruding their space...

i miss just being around my closest frens and not worrying about whether i'm being a "lampost" or not cuz my closest frens have became "closer" themselves...

i miss being friendly and not making people think that i'm fake...

i miss people showing sincere concern on me and spurring me one with simple words of encouragement..

i miss being able to come home and ask "mum, what's for lunch or dinner???"...

i miss being driven around by my dad and having those lil father and son talks we had in the car...

i miss going for youth camps and thinking that they were the best 5 days and 4 nights i ever had...

i know i'll never get to re-live those days again... that's why i missed them so... but the fact remains is that life pushes you forward without ur consent... and as inevitable as it is, i still wished that i'd had the opportunity to appreciate those significant lil moments that put a smile on my face.

but no. the cliche is that...LIFE MOVES ON... so must i...nevermind the nostalgia... it's the heavy heart i leave behind...